Part 2 of my ‘dance with God’

Part 2 of my ‘dance with God’

A few days ago I shared with you some of my personal journey of my ‘wrestlemania’ with God.

Even though I was doing great ‘out there’ in the world, there was so much more inside of me that still wanted to come out.

I felt like a fraction of my true self and wanted to make a bigger impact. I knew there was more to share and speak to fulfill the potential and desire inside of me. I was frustrated, hungry and unsatisfied.

I went to the mat daily with God and my words, over and over were: “let me out!”

And then, one day in my meditation and journaling, when I finally stopped berating God and got quiet enough to listen, I got 3 words that shook me to my core.

The words were crystal clear. They were undeniable. They were exactly what I needed to hear.

The words were: “Let Me In.”TTK meditation on beach

It took my breath away.

God asked me to be let in!

At first, I thought “What? What are You talking about?!”

Then suddenly, I could see all the ways I was pushing, struggling and fighting to edge God out (hmm…those spell “EGO!”).  How much I was trying to drive things and that I wasn’t really open, even though I thought I was very open.

I could see the obvious ways I was resisting, but mostly, I saw the more sophisticated and subtle ways. I’d been ‘around the block’ with my spiritual path and done tons of personal work for many years, so I was very clever about it all.

(Perhaps you can relate…)

Yet the bottom line was that I had been trying to override, force, push, make excuses, deny or rationalize, and these were all signs of resistance!

So I waived the white flag, got over myself, gave in and went for it.

I dove in head first to explore what this inspired divine directive to “Let Me In” meant and where I was genuinely being led. What it meant for me personally, in my own authentic way, to ‘let God in’ with a new openness, courage, surrender and vigor.

I was all in!

I got honest about the depth of my passion for spirituality. I got real about why I’ve been a seeker all my life.

I faced my excuses and limiting beliefs I had about myself. I got honest about my fears about money and dug in to study wealth consciousness and what’s possible.

I didn’t settle for anything superficial. I went deeper and pushed myself beyond my comfort zone over and over. I started to authentically learn to love the parts of me I hated and not just put “spiritual saran wrap” (as we call it here) and ‘do’ spirituality, but instead face and feel the fears and pain that haunted me for as long as I could remember.

And, I got honest about the depth of my intuition and started to make peace where I had battled with trusting myself and my vision, as I began to get to know and embrace my true divine essence.

This was never easy. And never the ‘norm’. Yet it was the only choice and true path for me.

I put myself in situations and circumstances that were way bigger than I knew how to handle so I had to take myself on and let God run the show. Each of these challenges and moments grew me immensely and miracles came pouring in.

And as I dove in and drenched myself in my deepest love – knowing God and knowing myself as a divine being here to express God in my unique way – I became more and more courageous to share my truth and to share my true self ‘out there’.

I brought this to every aspect of my business and speaking.

I claimed the essence of my “GodWork” and helped others claim theirs in their own life and business. I started praying with clients and in our programs. I wrote and spoke about it publically.

And without waver, our community and amazing clients connected and responded, and owned their truth as well. They became courageous to start to embrace and embody the role spirituality plays in their business and speaking too.

Over that long stretch of time in my journaling, God and I literally wrote love letters to each other everyday. It was amazing!! The outpouring of love and adoration was magnificent: I shared my love and devotion, and God shared how loved and cherished I am.

And then, one day while journaling, I got the next 3 words that I’ll share with you in my next post. 🙂

Stay tuned!

In the meantime, please grab your journal and start writing what’s going on for you:

1-    How much do you “Let [God, Spirit, Source, Universe, etc] in?” (Please fill in your own word.) In what ways do you override, push, deny or resist the ways divine support and opportunities come to you?

Remember the quote from Napoleon Hill’s book “Think and Grow Rich”: “Opportunity often come disguised as misfortune.” What opportunities have come or are coming to you that you may be pushing away?

Please do not judge anything that comes up, just write what you see and then look at it objectively. It’s all good, and it’s all gold!

2-    What excuses, rationalizing (“rationing + lies” as a coach once said to me) and reasons do you buy into or allow to keep you playing small and not going for your true calling or dreams? Write what you say to yourself or to others about money, time, what’s possible for you, and what you believe you can or cannot do.

3-    What can you do immediately to start to connect more deeply with your spirituality and bring it into your daily life? What are you willing to embrace to make this happen? What are you willing to let go of? Even starting with something small will be a great step forward!

These are big questions. They require a big space within yourself to dive in deeper. These are for big visionaries and big-hearted messengers, speakers and feminine leaders.

I believe these are big for YOU because you’re here to be bigger too! Not from ego, but in service to the truth of your Soul and your calling.

Please make some time to respond to these questions for yourself. And if you would, I’d love for you to share what you discover by commenting below  and let me know what’s opening up for you.

Thank you for taking the time to dig deeper and please let me know what you’re discovering about yourself by commenting below. Stay tuned for the next in this series with the final 3 words in my personal ‘dance’ with God!